Post by PsychoticAntidote on Jun 13, 2005 14:52:30 GMT -5
My Son Soren
When I look into your eyes so pure and innocent my heart wrenches with joy.
Joy you are here.
Joy you are mine.
Joy you are so innocent and sweet.
Yet there is sadness too.
Sadness that everyday you get a little bit older, a little bit bigger, a little bit less dependant upon me.
I wish I could keep you small forever.
I wish we could control life that way, but we can’t for it is not meant to be.
So for now I will hold you close to me and cherish this time we have.
I know It wont be long before you are grown and on your own, but there is one thing I want you to always remember and carry with you for all time.
Your Mama loves you boy.
I will always be here for you not matter what life throws your way. You can always count on me.
I will be your rock in good times and bad.
I will stand by your side through it all.
Never be afraid to come to me for I will not judge only guide you with unconditional love.
When I look into your eyes so pure and innocent my heart wrenches with joy.
Joy you are here.
Joy you are mine.
Joy you are so innocent and sweet.
Yet there is sadness too.
Sadness that everyday you get a little bit older, a little bit bigger, a little bit less dependant upon me.
I wish I could keep you small forever.
I wish we could control life that way, but we can’t for it is not meant to be.
So for now I will hold you close to me and cherish this time we have.
I know It wont be long before you are grown and on your own, but there is one thing I want you to always remember and carry with you for all time.
Your Mama loves you boy.
I will always be here for you not matter what life throws your way. You can always count on me.
I will be your rock in good times and bad.
I will stand by your side through it all.
Never be afraid to come to me for I will not judge only guide you with unconditional love.
A Darkened Love
Hand in hand we walk
You My King of Darkness
Me your Angel of the Night
Our kiss one of deadly power and might
Your touch awakens Me from My flight
You make Me realize things no one has before
There is someone out there for Me
There is a love Bold and True
There is a God
And he is You.
Hand in hand we walk
You My King of Darkness
Me your Angel of the Night
Our kiss one of deadly power and might
Your touch awakens Me from My flight
You make Me realize things no one has before
There is someone out there for Me
There is a love Bold and True
There is a God
And he is You.
The One That Got Away
You were the one I dreamed of for so long
The antidote to my loneliness
You made me smile when I was sad
You were the light to my night
You stopped the cutting and took my hand.
You lead me to the light away from the night
You were the Top I was the Bottom
You abused me in way no one else could
You hurt me and made me cry oh so good
I loved your abuse and took it like any good girl would
I know I ruined it now though
I know its over and I should go on
Let you be and try and pick up the pieces of me
Its my fault your gone.
I pushed you away
I wish I wouldn’t have but what can I say
I will move on and go my way
It wont be easy
It wont be gentle but I know I don’t deserve easy or gentle after what I did to you.
You will never be forgotten though.
In my heart you reign. You are king and I am just a mere peasant begging at your feet.
You were the one I dreamed of for so long
The antidote to my loneliness
You made me smile when I was sad
You were the light to my night
You stopped the cutting and took my hand.
You lead me to the light away from the night
You were the Top I was the Bottom
You abused me in way no one else could
You hurt me and made me cry oh so good
I loved your abuse and took it like any good girl would
I know I ruined it now though
I know its over and I should go on
Let you be and try and pick up the pieces of me
Its my fault your gone.
I pushed you away
I wish I wouldn’t have but what can I say
I will move on and go my way
It wont be easy
It wont be gentle but I know I don’t deserve easy or gentle after what I did to you.
You will never be forgotten though.
In my heart you reign. You are king and I am just a mere peasant begging at your feet.
Faker
You… A Faker…
I sit here and wish you were here
I wish I could feel your face, kiss your lips, or hold your body close to mine
I wish the fantasy of you was real
I wish you were real but you are not
Only another Faker like all the rest
Only another heartbreaker telling lies and making promises
Why can you not be real?
What is so bad about telling the truth?
If you did not like me you could have just said so
You didn’t have to hurt me so bad
To you this is just a game
You are just another player
But to me it was real
What we had was real and meant to last
It didn’t though and I will go on
We all learn from our mistakes and let me tell you
You were one of my biggest mistakes ever you f****n faker.
You… A Faker…
I sit here and wish you were here
I wish I could feel your face, kiss your lips, or hold your body close to mine
I wish the fantasy of you was real
I wish you were real but you are not
Only another Faker like all the rest
Only another heartbreaker telling lies and making promises
Why can you not be real?
What is so bad about telling the truth?
If you did not like me you could have just said so
You didn’t have to hurt me so bad
To you this is just a game
You are just another player
But to me it was real
What we had was real and meant to last
It didn’t though and I will go on
We all learn from our mistakes and let me tell you
You were one of my biggest mistakes ever you f****n faker.
Dying for You
I cry myself to sleep every night thinking of you.
Oh how I wish you could be here.
Oh how I wish I could kiss away your tear.
I wish you were near.
Just once I wish you were here.
I wish I could reach out of the darkness and pull you near.
Hold you tight with all my might.
Kiss you dearly in the moonlight.
But your not here
And your No where in sight
So I sit alone in the moonlight
Tears in my eyes
Gun in my hand..
Place it to my head
Bang I’m dead
I cry myself to sleep every night thinking of you.
Oh how I wish you could be here.
Oh how I wish I could kiss away your tear.
I wish you were near.
Just once I wish you were here.
I wish I could reach out of the darkness and pull you near.
Hold you tight with all my might.
Kiss you dearly in the moonlight.
But your not here
And your No where in sight
So I sit alone in the moonlight
Tears in my eyes
Gun in my hand..
Place it to my head
Bang I’m dead
Needy
Nothing makes me happy
Nothing makes me smile
I need this in my life more then anyone shall know
I need happiness and smiles
I need love and hugs
I need so much
Yet get so little
Nothing makes me happy
Nothing makes me smile
I need this in my life more then anyone shall know
I need happiness and smiles
I need love and hugs
I need so much
Yet get so little
Alone
Alone is that empty feeling you get when you come home and switch on the light only to realize that no one is there.
It's the terrible heartache you have when you need comforting and no one is there.
Alone is dealing with everything on your own because there is no one there.
Its hurts to be alone.
It hurts to deal with the weight of the world on your own.
It would be nice to have someone there to hold you when you need to be held and kiss away your tears.
To help you through the years.
I suppose those things aren't meant for everyone though and so i am left to be alone, forevermore
[/i]Alone is that empty feeling you get when you come home and switch on the light only to realize that no one is there.
It's the terrible heartache you have when you need comforting and no one is there.
Alone is dealing with everything on your own because there is no one there.
Its hurts to be alone.
It hurts to deal with the weight of the world on your own.
It would be nice to have someone there to hold you when you need to be held and kiss away your tears.
To help you through the years.
I suppose those things aren't meant for everyone though and so i am left to be alone, forevermore
Darkness
The darkness engulfs me
Surrounded by pain and fear
Fear for the known and unknown alike
I wonder where I belong
I feel as if I do not belong here
I feel as if I should be dead
Free to roam in the pits of hell
Despair is my life.. My friend..
Happiness my only enemy
I can not go on as I am today
I can not live life this way
Please someone hold out your hand
Please someone end the pain
Pull me from this tragedy they call life
Take me home and give me light
The darkness engulfs me
Surrounded by pain and fear
Fear for the known and unknown alike
I wonder where I belong
I feel as if I do not belong here
I feel as if I should be dead
Free to roam in the pits of hell
Despair is my life.. My friend..
Happiness my only enemy
I can not go on as I am today
I can not live life this way
Please someone hold out your hand
Please someone end the pain
Pull me from this tragedy they call life
Take me home and give me light
Stop the Cutting
Cuts on my arms
Cuts on my legs
Everyone wonders where they came from
I do not tell for they wouldn’t understand
Instead I secretly cut and pretend it’s a far away land
I know its not healthy
I know its not safe
But what can I say when I don’t have a way.
No way to express the way I feel inside
No way to describe where the hurt comes from.
No way to say hey you hurt me please don’t do that again.
People don’t understand so I don’t say what feel
Instead I say what they want me to say.
Maybe someone someday can make this all stop
Maybe someone someday can bring it to a hault
No one has yet though so I doubt they ever will but if you feel you can then give it a whirl.
Try to end the pain
Try to stop the hurt
Try to stop the tears that fall onto my shirt.
Just please don’t leave me with even more hurt.
Cuts on my arms
Cuts on my legs
Everyone wonders where they came from
I do not tell for they wouldn’t understand
Instead I secretly cut and pretend it’s a far away land
I know its not healthy
I know its not safe
But what can I say when I don’t have a way.
No way to express the way I feel inside
No way to describe where the hurt comes from.
No way to say hey you hurt me please don’t do that again.
People don’t understand so I don’t say what feel
Instead I say what they want me to say.
Maybe someone someday can make this all stop
Maybe someone someday can bring it to a hault
No one has yet though so I doubt they ever will but if you feel you can then give it a whirl.
Try to end the pain
Try to stop the hurt
Try to stop the tears that fall onto my shirt.
Just please don’t leave me with even more hurt.
One O.D. (OverDose)
Pill by Pill slides down my throat
In My stomach they shall float
Death is upon Me
Let Me be.
My sanity and soul deserves to be free
Death the only option
My life cant be saved
My soul and Mind yearns to be free
Let them go peacefully.
Pill by Pill slides down my throat
In My stomach they shall float
Death is upon Me
Let Me be.
My sanity and soul deserves to be free
Death the only option
My life cant be saved
My soul and Mind yearns to be free
Let them go peacefully.
Broken
Broken and alone she lies
Tears stain her pillow
She screams out but no one hears her
Her life is torn apart
Left in ruins at her feet
He is gone and she cant take it
She needs him in her life
She needs his strong arms holding her
She needs his smile
She needs his kisses and hugs
Most of all she needs his love and affection
She wanted to be alone
She needed it more then anything
Now that she is though she is too weak to carry on.
She thought she was independent.
She thought she could make it
Was those just meek little thoughts
Or can she do it on her own
She doesn’t know and mnever know
But she is about to try and find out
She raises her head from the pillow
Tears stain her cheek
She looks out the window
She sees A rainbow in the distance
She gets up from her bed and walks over for a closer look
The end of a storm is the beginning of a new day
[/i][/color]Broken and alone she lies
Tears stain her pillow
She screams out but no one hears her
Her life is torn apart
Left in ruins at her feet
He is gone and she cant take it
She needs him in her life
She needs his strong arms holding her
She needs his smile
She needs his kisses and hugs
Most of all she needs his love and affection
She wanted to be alone
She needed it more then anything
Now that she is though she is too weak to carry on.
She thought she was independent.
She thought she could make it
Was those just meek little thoughts
Or can she do it on her own
She doesn’t know and mnever know
But she is about to try and find out
She raises her head from the pillow
Tears stain her cheek
She looks out the window
She sees A rainbow in the distance
She gets up from her bed and walks over for a closer look
The end of a storm is the beginning of a new day